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Wainwright Unit, Lovelady, Texas

9 years in solitary / ad seg

Brian

TUCKER

August 2, 2023

Words by BRIAN TUCKER

Photography by TEXAS LETTERS​​

HELLO TO ALL, MY NAME IS BRIAN TUCKER, IM A 56 YR. OLD DOING A SENTENCE OF “LIFE WITHOUT PAROLE”. IM INCARCERATED IN THE TEXAS DEPARTMENT OF CRIMINAL JUSTICE INSTITUTIONS DIVISION. SO, NO MATTER WHERE IM HOUSED OR WHATEVER UNIT IM CLASSIFIED TO, I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO CALL THIS HOME. I WAS RELEASED FROM ADMINISTRATIVE SEGREGATION OR NOW SINCE THEY CHANGED THE NAME TO RESTRICTIVE HOUSING. I WAS PLACED INTO SEGREGATION FOR AN ESCAPE, THAT HAPPENED FROM THE COUNTY JAIL. A SECURITY PRECATION DESIGNATOR (ES) WAS PLACED ON ME AND I WAS TOLD I WOULD HAVE TO SPEND THE NEXT 10 YEARS LOCKED AWAY IN A CAGE. I ONLY DID 9 YEARS 6 MONTHS ONLY FOR THE REASON THAT A GROUP OF US ON THE DARRINGTON, NOW MEMORIAL UNIT PARTICIPATED IN A HUNGER STRIKE. AFTER 14 DAYS WITHOUT EATING, I WAS SENT CLOSER TO HOME. I WAS THERE FOR 2 WEEKS WHEN THE DIRECTOR OVER CLASSIFICATIONS RELEASED ME TO AN TRANSITION PROGRAM ON THE RAMSEY UNIT. WHILE I WAS IN SEGREGATION I STARTED WORKING ON MY APPEAL. AND ON SEPTEMBER 12, 2017 I FILED IT. I WORKED AND STUDIED THE CRIMINAL LAW EVERYDAY. I WAS IN THE APPEAL COURTS FOR ALMOST 5 YEARS. BUT DARRINGTON AND RAMSEY UNITS HELD MY LEGAL MAIL FROM ME FOR 5 ½ MONTHS. RESULTING IN GETTING ME KICKED OUT OF COURTS. SO, MY TRANSITION GOING TO POPULATION STARTED ON THE WRONG FOOT. AFTER ALL THOSE YEARS CAGED UP, I WAS THROWN STRAIGHT INTO A CELL WITH SOMEONE ELSE. LOOKS LIKE THE PROGRAM WOULD HAVE ATLEAST LET ME GET USE TO BEING AROUND OTHERS. IT TOOK ME SEVERAL DAYS BEFORE I COULD ACTUALLY GET SOME SLEEP. I’VE BEEN OUT OF SEGREGATION FOR OVER A YEAR AND I’M STILL NOT COMFORTABLE HAVING SOMEONE IN THE CELL WITH ME. I LEARNED DIFFERENT COPING SKILLS AND TO THIS DAY IM STILL HAVING TO USE THEM. I HAVE DONE TIME IN POPULATION, BUT IT WAS TOTALLY DIFFERENT. SEEMS LIKE THE WORD RESPECT NO LONGER EXIST. HALF OF THESE YOUNGSTERS CANT EVEN DEFINE RESPECT. SO FAR MY OPINION ABOUT POPULATION WOULD BE ONE GOOD DEFINITION - “OUT OF CONTROL”. THERES DAYS AND NIGHTS THAT I WISH I WAS STILL IN SEGREGATION. I ENDED UP REFUSING THE TRANSITION PROGRAM FOR SEVERAL REASONS. MY LINE CLASS WAS DROPPED AND MY CUSTODY LEVEL WAS CHANGE TO G-5 STATUS. IT’S BASICALLY THE SAME AS SEGREGATION EXCEPT NOW YOU ARE FORCED TO HAVE A CELLY. AND IF YOU DONT HAVE A GOOD CELLY TIME CAN BE BAD. THE FIRST CELLY I HAD WAS A NUT CASE. I WOKE UP ONE MORNING AT 2:15AM WITH HIM SITTING ON THE TOILET FULLY DRESSED, SHOES AND ALL. I ASKED HIM WHAT WAS ON HIS MIND, NO ANSWER. SO I STARTED PUTTING ON MY BOOTS AND HE GOT BACK IN BED. WHEN HE GOT UP FOR BREAKFAST I TOLD HIM ONE OF US HAD TO LEAVE, AND IT WASN’T GONNA BE ME. I SAID ONE OF US IS GONNA DIE UP IN HERE IF IT STAYED THE SAME. HE GAVE THE LAW A NOTE AND 5 MINUTES LATER THERE WAS A LT., SGT AND SEVERAL LAWS TELLING HIM HE WAS MOVING. I WAS TRANSFERED SHORTLY AFTER TO ROBERTSON UNIT. AFTER I SEEN UNIT CLASSIFICATIONS I WAS MOVED TO EIGHT BUILDING. WHEN I WALKED INTO THE CELL THE GUY WAS BOILING A BOWL OF WATER. THE WATER WAS A RUSTY COLOR. I SAID SURELY YOU’RE NOT GONNA DRINK THAT ARE YOU? HE TOLD ME HE WAS GONNA THROW IT IN THE SSI’S FACE BECAUSE HE HAS BEEN PUTTING POISON IN HIS FOOD. I TOLD HIM TO SHOW ME WHICH ONE IT WAS. SO, I CALLED HIM TO THE CELL AND ASKED IF HE WAS PUTTING POISON IN MY CELLIES FOOD. HE TOLD ME HE DOESNT EVEN KNOW HIM. SO I STARTED TRADING MY TRAY FOR HIS. EVERYTHING WAS GOOD FOR ABOUT 2 WEEKS, THEN ONE DAY HE SAID HE WAS GONNA BE MOVED. I ASKED HIM WHY. HE TOLD ME FOR THE PAST 5 YEARS THAT HE WOULD MOVE AROUND EVERY TWO MONTHS. I TALKED HIM OUT OF IT. THEN A WEEK LATER HE BLAMED ME FOR THROWING SOMETHING ON HIS BED, AND IT WAS MAKING HIM ITCH. HE ENDED UP CATCHING OUT. I TOLD MYSELF, IF POPULATION IS FULL OF PEOPLE LIKE THIS PUT ME BACK INTO SEGREGATION. ONCE I GOT TO ROBERTSON UNIT, THE CHAIN OFFICER HELD ALL MY PROPERTY FOR 16 DAYS. I FILED STEP 1 GRIEVANCES AGAINST ADMINISTRATION FOR SEVERAL THINGS INCLUDING MEDICAL DENYING TREATMENT, IN WHICH IS A VIOLATION OF THE EIGHTH AMENDMENT. I SENT A LETTER TO DEPUTY DIRECTOR MR. MARTINEZ AND TOLD HIM I WAS ABOUT TO PUT TOGETHER ANOTHER HUNGER STRIKE. TWO WEEKS LATER I WAS TRANSFERED BACK TO HUNTSVILLE TO THE ESTELLE UNIT.

I WAS RE-ASSIGNED TO THE STILES UNIT IN BEAUMONT. THE CELLY THERE WAS ALRIGHT, JUST DIRTY AS HELL. I TELL ALL MY CELLIES, I’LL KEEP THE FLOOR, SINK, TOILET CLEAN BUT CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELF. WHILE I WAS AT STILES UNIT I FINALLY MADE MY G-4 STATUS. THIS WAS THE NEXT STEP CLOSER TO POPULATION. I WAS PUT INTO A CELL WITH A 65 YR. OLD BLACK GUY. SO, I CAUGHT THE SGT WALKING THRU AND STOPPED HIM. HE MUST HAVE BEEN HIGH BECAUSE HE HAD ON A PAIR OF SUNGLASSES. I EXPLAINED THAT MY CELLY DIDNT HAVE ANYTHING, AND IT’S COLD. CAN HE PLEASE HELP MY CELLY. THE SGT FOR NO REASON CALLED ME A BITCH. I TOLD HIM IF THATS HOW HE FELT THAN OPEN THE DOOR AND COME UP IN MY CELL. WHAT I DIDNT KNOW THE SGT WAS APART OF ONE OF THE GANGS THERE. HE LEFT MY CELL AND WENT AND TALKED TO THREE BLACK INMATES. AT BREAKFAST TIME I WENT TO CHOW HALL. WHEN I CAME BACK I WAS APPROACHED BY A YOUNGER BLACK GUY. HE ASKED ME WHY I WAS ARGUING WITH THE SGT. I TOLD HIM THATS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. HE TOLD ME HE WAS MAKING IT HIS BUSINESS. SO I TOLD HIM TO CATCH THE STAIRS. HE POSTED UP ON ME AND I BANGED HIM TWICE ON THE KNOT BEHIND EACH EAR. DAZED HIM GOOD. GUESS HE THOUGHT A OLD MAN WOULDNT STAND UP AND FIGHT. HIS HOMEBOYS BROKE IT UP, AND I WENT TO MY CELL. ABOUT 15 MINUTES LATER THERES 8 GUYS TRING TO POP MY DOOR, SO, I PULLED MY WEAPON OUT WAITING. THIS IS AROUND 3AM. AND THE PICKET CALLED RANK BECAUSE THEY WANT RACKED UP. SEVERAL RANKING OFFICERS CAME, INCLUDING THE SGT. I HAD PROBLEMS WITH. I HEARD HIM TELL ONE OF THE GUYS, I TOLD YOU NOT TO DO ANYTHING ON MY CARD. I STILL HAD MY WEAPON IN MY HAND. NOW I WANT TO GET THE SGT. I WAS PLACED INTO CUFFS AND WAS PLACED ON 11 BUILDING. THE SGT NEVER BROUGHT MY PROPERTY OR A CASE FOR THE WEAPON. I HAD A FRIEND CALL THE WARDEN AND I WAS TRANSFERED TO JESTER 4 UNIT. AFTER MY RETURN I WAS THEN SHIPPED TO WAINWRIGHT UNIT. IM STILL A G-4 STATUS, BUT WAS TOLD IT WAS FOR THE SECURITY PRECAUTION DESIGNATOR. I HAVE FILED GRIEVANCES ON THE MATTER BUT NOTHING HAS HAPPENED. I ALWAYS WATCH MY SURROUNDINGS AND I NOTICED WHEN THREE WHITE DUDES CAME BACK FROM COMMISSARY THERE WAS AROUND 5 BLACK BOYS TAKING THEIR COMMISSARY. IM NOT GONNA GO THRU THIS, SO I MADE ME A SHANK OUT OF PLEXIGLASS WINDOW. MY CELLY ASKED WHAT I WAS GONNA DO WITH IT. I TOLD HIM NOBODY IS GONNA TAKE OR STEAL ANYTHING I GUESS HE SAID SOMETHING, BECAUSE TWO DAYS LATER I WAS PULLED OUT, AND THE WEAPON WAS FOUND. SO, I GOT A YEAR ADDED TO MY G-4 STATUS. I STAY BUSY EVERYDAY. IM ALSO WRITTING A BOOK ABOUT MY LIFE, AND I HOPE ONE DAY TO GET IT PUBLISHED. IM FINALLY GETTING MEDICAL TREATMENT, AND WILL HAVE SURGERY DONE OF MY RIGHT ELBOW IN AUGUST 2023. IM HANGING IN THERE STRONG. EVERYTHING WILL WORK OUT. ONCE I MAKE IT TO G-3 STATUS, THINGS WILL BE BETTER. BUT SO FAR THE TRANSITION HAS BEEN SCREWED UP. I LOST APPEAL, LOST MY PROPERTY AND HAD SOME BAD CELLIES. I WANT TO WISH THE BEST OF LUCK TO THE ONES THAT PARTICIPATED IN THE “TEXAS LETTERS BOOK” AND TO THOSE THAT ARE WRITTING A “AFTERMATH STORY”. I ALSO WANT TO GIVE SPECIAL THANKS TO AARON STRIZ FOR PUTTING ASIDE THE THINGS THAT DIDNT MATTER, AND TO PUT TOGETHER THE THINGS THAT BENEFITS OUR FUTURE.

    THANKS TO ALL,

 

    BRIAN TUCKER #1847045

    J. DALE WAINWRIGHT UNIT

    2665 PRISON ROAD 1

    LOVELADY, TEXAS. 75851

AFTERMATH

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